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Depression and Isolation

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Just wanted to see how many people can relate with the post, considering the fact there are people constantly getting high or drunk while playing bf4. I defiantly have some personal demons, but I don’t think people should get that type of information, unless they’re committed. I’ve been told no one is a therapist and shouldn’t listen to anyone’s demons :(.
 
Just wanted to see how many people can relate with the post, considering the fact there are people constantly getting high or drunk while playing bf4. I defiantly have some personal demons, but I don’t think people should get that type of information, unless they’re committed. I’ve been told no one is a therapist and shouldn’t listen to anyone’s demons :(.
Well, yeah, some mfers out here ain't doin so well.
As far as "no one is a therapist", I have to disagree. No man is an island, nothing exists in a vacuum. The altruistic title of therapist goes far beyond academia, certification, and the DSM-5. Every person is at least capable of being a therapist. Those who been through it, more so. Some people out here are so self-centered and disassociated that they may as well be Agent Smiths, but some of us still think, feel, and live. Hop in game and hug it out.
 
Been through a lot. One thing I'll recommend, is finding a good counselor/therapist, one that jives with your needs, not every counselor/therapist is a good fit for everyone else, you have to shop around.

Second, I highly recommend Cognitive Processing Therapy. Seriously, look into it.

Third, not a lot of people like the idea of medication, but it's one more tool in the toolbox to use to help fix what's going on.
 
Just wanted to see how many people can relate with the post, considering the fact there are people constantly getting high or drunk while playing bf4. I defiantly have some personal demons, but I don’t think people should get that type of information, unless they’re committed. I’ve been told no one is a therapist and shouldn’t listen to anyone’s demons :(.
I play BF most nights, and every time I play I drink. In fact, it's generally the only time I drink. Its my me time, these days I prefer my own company.

These last 3 years have been pretty shithouse and definitely got me down. But I wouldn't say chronically depressed or anything; I still got a wonderfully supportive waifu and a house in a leafy suburb of an OK town.

And I was still drinking and BFing before the event. Just probably not as much.
 
Been through a lot. One thing I'll recommend, is finding a good counselor/therapist, one that jives with your needs, not every counselor/therapist is a good fit for everyone else, you have to shop around.

Second, I highly recommend Cognitive Processing Therapy. Seriously, look into it.

Third, not a lot of people like the idea of medication, but it's one more tool in the toolbox to use to help fix what's going on.
Thanks for the advice, I already have a therapist, they’re nice to talk to and give advice :).

Medications on the other hand…I believe are terrible and can only work on a subset of individuals. It’s pretty much get prescribed a medication, go through the process of side effects, find it it doesn’t work, get off of it, repeat process again with new medication. Then there’s the problem of tolerance and side effects. For some reason I become tolerant to must psychotropic/psychoactive drugs. So any medication I get prescribed, I’ll become tolerant to it after a month or so. Can’t even drink alcohol because I’m either tolerant or I keep getting delusions of sobriety XD, even though I drink every couple of weeks to a month or two.

I’m taking a medication for my insomnia, maybe it’s caused by depression idk, but that medication causes type 2 diabetes and high blood pressure. I’m not even fat or old, yet now I have two more disorders to worry about. What’s the psychiatrist’s solution? Prescribe more medications to treat the side effects of the medication that’s treating my insomnia. Like wtf. The high blood pressure medication is ok, but the diabetes medication is horrible. Once I took the diabetes medication, I got rashes all over my body, stopped taking the medication, and now the rashes are slowly going away. If I were to tell my psychiatrist about the rashes he would have probably prescribed some cream to treat the side effect of the side effect of the medication for my insomnia -_-.

CPT sounds like CBT, which is what I’m trying to do now.
 
Thanks for the advice, I already have a therapist, they’re nice to talk to and give advice :).

Medications on the other hand…I believe are terrible and can only work on a subset of individuals. It’s pretty much get prescribed a medication, go through the process of side effects, find it it doesn’t work, get off of it, repeat process again with new medication. Then there’s the problem of tolerance and side effects. For some reason I become tolerant to must psychotropic/psychoactive drugs. So any medication I get prescribed, I’ll become tolerant to it after a month or so. Can’t even drink alcohol because I’m either tolerant or I keep getting delusions of sobriety XD, even though I drink every couple of weeks to a month or two.

I’m taking a medication for my insomnia, maybe it’s caused by depression idk, but that medication causes type 2 diabetes and high blood pressure. I’m not even fat or old, yet now I have two more disorders to worry about. What’s the psychiatrist’s solution? Prescribe more medications to treat the side effects of the medication that’s treating my insomnia. Like wtf. The high blood pressure medication is ok, but the diabetes medication is horrible. Once I took the diabetes medication, I got rashes all over my body, stopped taking the medication, and now the rashes are slowly going away. If I were to tell my psychiatrist about the rashes he would have probably prescribed some cream to treat the side effect of the side effect of the medication for my insomnia -_-.

CPT sounds like CBT, which is what I’m trying to do now.
Not every medication works the same for everyone. When I was a teenager I was on xanax and paxil, I think... I couldn't take them anymore because I would trip balls and everything looked like a stop motion animation, it was really weird and felt like things were moving a frame at a time.

I refused meds for years, I didn't like the idea that I couldn't handle or fix what was going on with me. February of 2022 was probably my lowest point, I finally found a medication that helped and I found a fantastic counselor. I don't know if she only works with vets, but I can try to get her name and contact info if you'd like?
 
I have to agree with Sabre, anyone can be a therapist. I mean I used to be in the ol' High school days, my friends(girls) used to always tell me their problems.. So just being a good listener can help a lot as well.. It always feels good to let some steam go. As for demons, fuck me, got so many that we just agreed to live day by day.

I agree, I enjoy drinking some wine or beer to cope with long day of stress or to just take off the edge.. I've cut back on the drinking part, used to drink everyday with Mr. Gaussman and crew during the covid times. Sometimes, I still look to grab a beer as I'm gaming, but yet all I'm grabbing is lemon water.

So, keep your head up, you're not alone here buddy. Don't let the drugs/depression get the better of you.
 
To add to the other good advice here, a lot can be done at home:
Get sunlight, supplement vitamin D, exercise (walking, running, jumping jacks while watching Netflix, pushups, anything) and eat a good diet low in sugar, moderate to high in protein, and get your minerals (especially magnesium) - vegetable source would be best, but multivitamin works too.
 
You think times rough.. I been throttled here on banzore forums for like a year cause I'm a bad boy, so takes me 5 min to post a message vs 10sec for you lol. #FreeSilentkilla613
 

SaphirOgma

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Dealt with depression and PTSD due to my job....depression was related to the girl I was dating and I found out she got pregnant from another man....

Then PTSD, I'm working as a local journalist here, I was having a snack at noodle shack, and I heard several gun shots outside, when I came out I saw the guy's head blasted like a watermelon. Not been thinking straight for like three years until I finally conquered it by meditating and practicing kendo.

Usually when I think about dark stuff, I just ask a close friend or family and talk about it, its bad to keep it to yourself dont be afraid to talk about it with family if you have to
 

SaphirOgma

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Anyways story behind my depression in the past is that I was ready to settle down with her been working out to save the money to buy her an engagement ring, we've been dating since my college days.

Then one night while I was having dinner, I texted her if maybe we can talk and all of sudden she called me and like she said I was too nice and too kind to her that he felt really guilty and admitted to seeing another man and that she is pregnant.

At the time it really tore me apart from the inside for like two years, then ofcourse the PTSD trigger well we all know the story of the drug war here in the Philippines, I'm working as a journalist for a regional paper.

Anyways in real life I really don't like to see people suffering and I actually thought about trying to perform CPR on the man, but then I realized that the gunmen might still be around watching and I could be targeted if I tried to save the guy.

After that its three years of not thinking straight, I get angry easily, getting annoyed even for no apparent reason, bad nightmares to the point that I can't even get a good sleep.

After joining a local Kendo school here I started to feel a lot better, learned how to meditate keep my mind clear of all the stress and just unleashed all those anger all over the place when sparring.

I still have some nightmares but its not worse compared to the previous years, and I now sleep soundly at night.

I think each and everyone of us are going to face our own inner demons sooner or later. One thing I learned is that you mustn't let fear overwhelm you, don't be afraid to talk about problems with friends and especially family, because the longer you keep it to yourself the more likely that you will be thinking something stupid that can hurt those who love you.
 
I think each and everyone of us are going to face our own inner demons sooner or later. One thing I learned is that you mustn't let fear overwhelm you, don't be afraid to talk about problems with friends and especially family, because the longer you keep it to yourself the more likely that you will be thinking something stupid that can hurt those who love you.
Right on brother. It's never a good idea to medicate a problem, pharmaceutical or otherwise. Unless you address the underlying problem it will just keep eating away at your soul.

It's good that you are fully aware of what you are dealing with and are willing to face it. I think for others it can be difficult if they don't know, or are suppressing their issues.
 
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