hah i had never come back on forums to much and noticed you posted that a few years ago, ya jackason it might not all be perfectly what i am saying because there big time gap's when the stuff was happening and i cannot be perfect explaining things to detail, but yes. the matter of the fact is, i had to quit drinking, i dissapeared from bZ because of that, i returned a year later or so after i had finished with stopping drinking and moving to a halfway house and the salvation army half that time doing there rehab program "reconnect" and so i went back to my parents land, but they had turned into drinkers, so i could not stay there, so i only have a few few friends and one told me i should move to NC to get away from my drunk parents and off the property i was stuck on, so he helped me do that, but he was a drinker it turned out, and was having a child soon, so it did not work out living with him long more then a month, so after a few issues up there with a place to stay i returned to texas. then as soon as possible left again to my other friend roberts house in midland texas, but he by that time was a drug user and a jerk and i hadnt seen him in a long time, so it did not work out long, and i called my last friend i knew and he had moved to alabama, but sed i could come stay with him, so i did. but i had not seen him for over a year as well, and he had turned into a drug user as well, i stayed there a little bit of time but after he had attacked me in my bedroom one morning with a butcher knife and on drugs and drinking all night, i came back to texas. but it still was not good with my family and there drinking and anger, in all this time i speak of i was in my room and not getting out, not doing much, and mostley had no internet, so i had to do something, at that time it was just a odd thing that happend, my mother came to me and told me my biological sister had found me on facebook and posted a comment to her trying to locate me, never met any of my biological family i am adopted, and so i contacted her back, we spoke, and she came to find out what was happening at my parents house and where i lived and what was happening in that town and not having the ability to get out much because it was 2 miles from town, and 55acrs of depression, so she asked if i would come to TS to meet her and get away for a week, i did, and things went well and i met my grandma and my sister and my aunt, etc. i knew of them but had never spoken to them, anyway they asked me to stay and to move there and not return to my parents, and i needed help with getting my life going seriously badly, i have had seizures/black outs since 1999 and all my jobs like DQ or places in town, i have lost because of that, having a seizure as im working. so i have become real secluded person, because i just dont like having to explain all this to everyone that ask's like you jackson, and so people assume i am a liar and not speaking truth. lol and that is not the case. but. i returned to texas, because they wanted me to cut off connections between my family and them, and they were not my family, obvously. they just were biological family, but had not been in my life for 30 years. so i could not do that, and they disliked it so i returned to texas finaly, came to kerrville texas this time not back to my parents land, and got a job at sonic, got my apartment, and returned to banzore finaly after a length of time, so i am sorry if its been awhile, but ya. thats the story, hope all of you are happy to finaly get to know what all went down and where i went, but i could not keep internet and stay with banzore 24/7 i had things happen. but i speak truth. and i am a friend in banzore and ts. so everything is going alright with me, i have been sober 4 years in sept, and havent even smoked some week since christmas, and that was to much stress with living where i do and my landlord, so i just stay clean, stay gaming, and stay with banzore, you guys are my friends, and ive had a confusing 5 years, so oops? but at least i have the balls to explain it. and yes jackson i do not have money to continue to see a doctor to put on a peace of paper that i have seizures, they do the visit, they give there opinion but it is not a you have seizures and go to medicaid, it is a well thats what it sounds like get money and go to a dr, and i never have cash to go to dr's i have to pay my rent and get food. and sinze i have been on and off working, i just get help from my mom and that friend robert, because they understand the seizures, they have seen me have them, so i have went to medicaid and disability the past 10 years for god sake. but its always a ya? you have seizures huh, well go get it on paper and i have tried to do that, but it never has happend because of money, and brain scans and things they want to have to say i have seizures/or black outs, luckely i havent had one in over a year now, so working, family, friends, stopping drinking, getting my own place, staying away from issues and problems like drug users and mean family, that is what i do, and i continue to have a nice day and game hard, and explain it to years later because i never noticed this comment you left and hey jackson im not a liar, lol its just been a confusing and stressfull 5 years, so sorry? 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